The war to our east, real and projection
Threatens my flesh; pleads self-reflection
While my inner war: love battling fear
Determines my quality of life living here
As fear triggers all wars, outside and in
Our unhinged world, reflects me within
I hide posed, protected, disguising myself
No longer trusting my true me withheld
Thus I am my wars outside and in
Blaming you for true me withheld
When I don’t get my way disputin
I can bully you like Vladimar Putin
I start my own war when feeling my pain
Looking outside for targets to blame
My war with fear, amps my self-doubt
The more insecure, the more I face out
Depending on you to secure my self-worth
Expecting you as the real me deferred
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I know how fear kills, fear is my cancer
I know what love is, love is our answer
I know I complete us with my uniqueness
I know I deceive us with dodgy obliqueness
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But, dissing my selfhood, I’m deserting us
Surrendering real me, you don’t get enough
Till my dying self-love, stillborn, inside
Lies, unspoken voice, fear-gagged, tongue tied
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Our war starts innocent, noting our differences
Afraid to differ lest compounding dissonance
Not melding contrasts, making love stronger
We weaken our bond by who’s right or wronger
Judgement builds distance from trenched separation
Full adversarial, we stoke self-preservation
It’s all about winning, now… and saving my ego
I don’t care anymore about a future where we go
Exterior voices, biased blueprintings
Opinion pandemic of fictionalized spinnings
We’re addicts to truth-less, infested partiality
Our critical reasoning, compromised reality
Too lazy to process whatever real facts
I’d rather mime others to cover my lacks
Worse, I no longer can know who I am
And, all you get now, is well practiced sham
Successful faking means you can’t love me
You just fall in like with my duplicity
Cheating on myself I can’t hold my pose
And, we head to blow up our phonies exposed
Meantime I’m pissed off, can’t hold my pose
Beginning to hate you cause
As hard as it’s sometimes to give you real me
I can love
When fear and mistrust are loving displaced
We earthlings will win our maligned human race
It takes initiative to process conclusions
We’re each uniquely indispensable